[ Curiously, she peers over at Yang. Pyrrha can certainly see the way her friend's expression tightens, but she can't imagine her not having a lot to talk about. ]
[She hesitates, almost as if she's hoping for some kind of distraction that's obviously not coming and then just lets her shoulders drop.]
I wasn't...in a good place...for awhile...
[It's even harder to admit to Pyrrha that she was genuinely scared than it had been to confess to her dad and professors, so this feels like a better substitute than the full truth.
Her left hand strays a little to rub against where her prosthetic ends and her arm begins.]
And I kinda only just started getting my butt in gear again back home...
[God this is so embarrassing, but she can't seem to force herself to outright lie to Pyrrha about this either.]
... [ Pyrrha sees where Yang's hand goes and - ah. Well, then. It's not as if Pyrrha can't understand the sort of devastation that leaves a person floored. Her own first few days here had been pretty bumpy.
That doesn't mean the situations are comparable. What Pyrrha lost isn't nearly as tangible; nor was she physically crippled by it. For a Huntress...
If Yang lets her, Pyrrha will reach out and give her back a gentle, reassuring pat. ]
Yang, the fact that you got back up at all proves how resilient you are. There's nothing you ought to be ashamed of.
[That pat is really appreciated, pulling a wane smile from Yang. She can't help but be reminded all over again how much she's missed Pyrrha at the gentle reassurance. Not that her dad hadn't been in her corner while she was recovering, but it's different when the gesture comes from a friend.]
Thanks but...there is one thing.
[She hesitates, but she's already come this far so she might as well be completely upfront.]
...I was pretty crummy to Ruby...after everything. I shut her out when she was hurting too and...I shouldn't have.
[Yang knew she'd had good reason to be angry and hurt herself, but taking it out on Ruby...
There wouldn't have been anything wrong with wanting to focus on her own recovery, but the things she'd said to her. The fact that she just hadn't been able to stomach Ruby's quiet hope to make a difference anymore, dismissing it as useless.
That was wrong.
She shakes her head, quietly rousing herself out of her moping and offering Pyrrha a small smile.]
But I'm gonna make it right.
[Or try to anyway. A small part of her is kinda worried Ruby might be mad at her or not want to see her, but that's on her to deal with.]
[ Pyrrha waits until Yang is done talking to offer her own two cents, continuing to lead gently through the crowd to their destination. (Sorry, Yang, it's absolutely going to be Steambucks.) ]
Well, if there's one thing I've learned from my time here... It's that we can't do anything about the past.
[ Learn from it, yes. They can absorb the lessons like air, necessary and definitive, but the fine line between respecting such a lesson and clinging to regrets needs to be acknowledged. That's what she believes, at least, and that's why she tries hard to be as resilient as she had been before.
Besides! If it's a contest of who was shittier to the person they love the most then Pyrrha wins, hands down. ]
I'm sure Ruby will understand. She really loves you, you know.
["Sometimes bad things just happen." "Never stop moving forward."
Qrow's advice hasn't stopped echoing in her head since Beacon fell, but the nuance of the words keeps changing for her. And she wants to put the past behind her more than anything and just never look back again ever but it's...difficult.
Regardless, Yang nods quietly, a soft smile on her face.]
Yeah...I know.
[And she's going to make sure her sister knows how much she loves her back this time.
Something else Pyrrha said has piqued her curiosity though and she's eager to get off the subject of herself.]
Soooo...what have you been doing here? Do you...fight monsters here?
[Pyrrha probably had interests and hobbies outside of being a Huntress but damned if Yang can recall any of them right now so monster fighting it is.]
[ Yang is clearly pushing for some sort of subject change and Pyrrha is more than happy to oblige, going along with it. At the question, she laughs pleasantly. ]
Oh, we sure do. Jaune, Nora and I have taken on a few mercenary missions since arriving. The Beastmaster Hunting Guild is always looking for capable Huntsmen and Huntresses - [ even here, she still uses those particular terms, ] and they pay pretty well. It helps pay the rent.
[ Even without her gear, it's helped her feel like herself. Later, she'll show Yang her shitty replacement weapon that she bought for, like, 5 sylv. ]
Aaaaand... I've also gotten a part time job at Steambucks.
[Seeing as her skill-set is still very much, "Punch the hell out of stuff"-leaning.
...Although her people skills aren't bad either at least.]
Wait, really, Steambucks?
[It's less the franchise and more that she'd never in a million years have thought Pyrrha would be interested in a run-of-the-mill customer service job? She's honestly surprised.]
[ Her gaze drops somewhat, as if Yang's surprise makes her shy. It certainly is a step down from being a brand ambassador for household cereal. She hasn't forgotten what Weiss said about service jobs either. An honest day's hard work couldn't legitimately be beneath her, could it? ]
Yeah... I thought it was important I contribute to the household rent as quickly as I could.
[Less beneath her and more Yang just always figured jobs like that were, well, dull? It's surprising to her that Pyrrha'd want to work a normal, every-day, non-exciting job instead of something more thrilling but uh...then again maybe it shouldn't be. Yang did kinda spend several months just doing chores around the house or otherwise being a couch potato.
That train of thought and hearing Pyrrha's own reasons has her smiling warmly.]
Makes sense.
I'm gonna go job hunting as soon as I can too.
[The remaining sylvs she got from the Welcome Center got pick-pocketed after all, so she's really gotta find some money and fast.]
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What do you mean? [ she asks gently. ]
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[She hesitates, almost as if she's hoping for some kind of distraction that's obviously not coming and then just lets her shoulders drop.]
I wasn't...in a good place...for awhile...
[It's even harder to admit to Pyrrha that she was genuinely scared than it had been to confess to her dad and professors, so this feels like a better substitute than the full truth.
Her left hand strays a little to rub against where her prosthetic ends and her arm begins.]
And I kinda only just started getting my butt in gear again back home...
[God this is so embarrassing, but she can't seem to force herself to outright lie to Pyrrha about this either.]
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That doesn't mean the situations are comparable. What Pyrrha lost isn't nearly as tangible; nor was she physically crippled by it. For a Huntress...
If Yang lets her, Pyrrha will reach out and give her back a gentle, reassuring pat. ]
Yang, the fact that you got back up at all proves how resilient you are. There's nothing you ought to be ashamed of.
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Thanks but...there is one thing.
[She hesitates, but she's already come this far so she might as well be completely upfront.]
...I was pretty crummy to Ruby...after everything. I shut her out when she was hurting too and...I shouldn't have.
[Yang knew she'd had good reason to be angry and hurt herself, but taking it out on Ruby...
There wouldn't have been anything wrong with wanting to focus on her own recovery, but the things she'd said to her. The fact that she just hadn't been able to stomach Ruby's quiet hope to make a difference anymore, dismissing it as useless.
That was wrong.
She shakes her head, quietly rousing herself out of her moping and offering Pyrrha a small smile.]
But I'm gonna make it right.
[Or try to anyway. A small part of her is kinda worried Ruby might be mad at her or not want to see her, but that's on her to deal with.]
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Well, if there's one thing I've learned from my time here... It's that we can't do anything about the past.
[ Learn from it, yes. They can absorb the lessons like air, necessary and definitive, but the fine line between respecting such a lesson and clinging to regrets needs to be acknowledged. That's what she believes, at least, and that's why she tries hard to be as resilient as she had been before.
Besides! If it's a contest of who was shittier to the person they love the most then Pyrrha wins, hands down. ]
I'm sure Ruby will understand. She really loves you, you know.
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Qrow's advice hasn't stopped echoing in her head since Beacon fell, but the nuance of the words keeps changing for her. And she wants to put the past behind her more than anything and just never look back again ever but it's...difficult.
Regardless, Yang nods quietly, a soft smile on her face.]
Yeah...I know.
[And she's going to make sure her sister knows how much she loves her back this time.
Something else Pyrrha said has piqued her curiosity though and she's eager to get off the subject of herself.]
Soooo...what have you been doing here? Do you...fight monsters here?
[Pyrrha probably had interests and hobbies outside of being a Huntress but damned if Yang can recall any of them right now so monster fighting it is.]
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Oh, we sure do. Jaune, Nora and I have taken on a few mercenary missions since arriving. The Beastmaster Hunting Guild is always looking for capable Huntsmen and Huntresses - [ even here, she still uses those particular terms, ] and they pay pretty well. It helps pay the rent.
[ Even without her gear, it's helped her feel like herself. Later, she'll show Yang her shitty replacement weapon that she bought for, like, 5 sylv. ]
Aaaaand... I've also gotten a part time job at Steambucks.
[ Yeah, she's a barista now. ]
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[Seeing as her skill-set is still very much, "Punch the hell out of stuff"-leaning.
...Although her people skills aren't bad either at least.]
Wait, really, Steambucks?
[It's less the franchise and more that she'd never in a million years have thought Pyrrha would be interested in a run-of-the-mill customer service job? She's honestly surprised.]
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Yeah... I thought it was important I contribute to the household rent as quickly as I could.
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That train of thought and hearing Pyrrha's own reasons has her smiling warmly.]
Makes sense.
I'm gonna go job hunting as soon as I can too.
[The remaining sylvs she got from the Welcome Center got pick-pocketed after all, so she's really gotta find some money and fast.]